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So I can't sleep tonight. idk why. i guess i just got a lot on my mind. I been talkin with a friend and i'm thinkin bout what i wanna do after high school. I want to join the army and become a medic. It can be dangerous because the medics go out onto the front line with the fighting men and help them if they get hurt. they can also be seen as an easy target because they are always busy helping if somebody is hurt. making it easy to see who the medic is. I guess the more i think about it the more i question my reasoning for wanting to join. I was only in 1st grade when 9/11 happened. and i remember it well. i remember as i got older and grew to understand what truely happened that day and since then i have felt an anger, pride, or what ever you want to call it that i want to bring justice. ya i know we got bin ladin but guess what somebody else will just take his place and do something again. maybe even worse then what happened that day. but the body count since that day has been increasing daily because the brave men and women who have fought to make this country as great as it is. I have friends who are serving and i thank them for it. I also have people in my family who have served and i thank them as well. but i guess there is just a pride in the uniform or and an anger when i see a video of that day that truley fules the fire that makes me stand up and say I am an American and I will fight for the rights of my fellow countrymen. this might get way off topic and i am sorry it is all in my head right now and if i don't get it out i will be up all night. I know my reasons for wanting to do what i want to do. i don't have to prove anything to anybody or justify my reasoning all i have to say is look at what happened on that day and there is where the true pride in the most powerful country on the planet stands. look at how we responed with the force and will to save anyone we could and get justice for whose we couldn't. I'm tired of sitting around saying oh i will let somebody else handel it. I'M DOING IT MYSELF. like it or not. like my 1SG says, "Lead, Follow, Or GET THE HECK OUT OF THE WAY"