Wow

So, one of my friends gave me the idea to do this and just let things out. this last year has been absolutely crazy. I don't even know where to start. My high school got a JROTC program and I have been involved and have made it to the rank of Master Sergeant and am on the Batalion staff. ever since i joined color guard i have barely had any time for my friends or family, I have been going and going and going and so this weekend for veterens day we had like 3 performances in 2 days which normally ain't that bad but for some reason they really took it out of me. Plus my brother and i ain't been getting along well lately and it is starting to get to me too. I just need a break and i'm trying just to keep calm but i just don't know sometimes it is hard for me to see the light at the end that God promises us but i think i'm starting to see why he says life ain't easy. In the past 3 months i have had to grow more then ever to try to keep up with my leadership as well as my family and I know that God will help me through as long as I stay true to him and fallow his words.